urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar Fading Evenstar Fading Evenstar 2004-05-31T23:49:26Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:26925 2004-05-31T23:49:26Z 2004-05-31T23:49:26Z I couldnt delete this, because there are some entries that I want to keep around. But you can find me now at <span class='ljuser ljuser-name_bloodneverlies' lj:user='bloodneverlies' style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='http://bloodneverlies.livejournal.com/profile'><img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='http://bloodneverlies.livejournal.com/'><b>bloodneverlies</b></a></span> Hope to see you there!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:26851 2004-05-25T16:00:33Z 2004-05-25T16:00:33Z I'm really debating this journal. I want it in the fact that it gives me a way to communicate with people. But then sometimes I hate it. <br /><br />I am deleting... but I will be back.<br /><br />I have to leave this name. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:26414 2004-05-21T06:17:46Z 2004-05-21T06:17:46Z I am going to make this friends only. So leave a comment if you want to stay friended on my list. Because I am doing an over-haul on this thing. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:26342 2004-05-19T05:38:15Z 2004-05-19T05:38:15Z Queer Eye on TV <i>for every action there is an equal but opposite reaction</i><br /><br />I just have to keep telling myself that and I think I will be ok.<br /><br />I hope I will be ok.<br /><br />I've never lost someone this important to me before.<br /><br />But he is gone.<br /><br />And I have to be ok with it.<br /><br />Right?!?!?! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:26039 2004-05-14T15:08:48Z 2004-05-14T15:08:48Z ROTK soundtrack Tell me..<br /><br />what is it that I have to say,<br /><br />what moves should I make,<br /><br />that would satisfy<br /><br />that difficult heart of yours?<br /><br />You know I love you,<br /><br />you can see that from miles away.<br /><br />And I know you love me,<br /><br />but sometimes<br /><br />I cant even feel it;<br /><br />even when you're right in front of me.<br /><br />Tell me..<br /><br />what is it that you want from me?<br /><br />I've given you everything<br /><br />that I have,<br /><br />and yet those angry words<br /><br />seem loudest <br /><br />when all I want is peace.<br /><br />You have my heart..<br /><br />now tell me,<br /><br />what else is it<br /><br />that you'll take? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:25095 2004-05-11T13:32:21Z 2004-05-11T13:32:21Z Well, the weekend was... instersting to say the least. I forgot alot of things about being home. Some that I was glad to remember and others that I wish I could have kept forgotten. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:25046 2004-05-07T04:57:20Z 2004-05-07T04:57:20Z So I had a whole entry, but fell asleep and lost all of it.<br /><br />sigh...<br /><br />I fear this weekend is going to be a huge huge bust.<br /><br />expected... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:24778 2004-05-06T03:14:52Z 2004-05-06T03:30:48Z Ani Difranco - Adam and Eve ugh... sometimes I wonder about you. Do you have to assume the worst. That I was talking about you. (ie my "In 2 Days" entry, "someone" left a comment) Babe, it wasnt about you. Trust me, I would have named your name!<br /><br />Well, tomorrow is my last day at the Irish Store. ::sniffle:: I almost cried, and so did Grace! I was like "whoa!"<br /><br />oh look at new icon pimpage! <br /><br />I do have to admit something. I DONT CARE IF FRIENDS IS ENDING!!!!!! God, I hate that show. Everyone can stop talking about it!<br /><br />My Ani cd has been getting a serious workout lately. I guess I am in a very "angry girl" mode.<br /><br /><i>you rhapsodize about beauty<br />and my eyes glaze <br />everything I love is ugly<br />I mean really, you would be amazed<br />just do me a favor<br />it's the least you can do<br />just don't treat me like I am<br />something that happened to you</i> <br /><br />I am so bored... blah blah blah blah! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:24240 2004-05-05T05:54:13Z 2004-05-05T05:54:13Z Much Ado About Nothing on TV I get to see my sister and brother.<br /><br />I get to get a hug from my father<br /><br />I get to be licked by my dog.<br /><br />I get to have my cheeks pinched by papa wimp and grandma alice.<br /><br />I get to <i>"Kyle: plus, you're going to be quite worn out after the 8th ;-) ::smirk::"</i> have fun with Kyle again.<br /><br />I get to leave the stress that is here.<br /><br />I get a few days off from work.<br /><br />I get a to stop thinking about certian people.<br /><br />I get to smile.<br /><br />I get to be happy. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:24039 2004-05-04T18:21:34Z 2004-05-04T18:21:34Z yeah, so this entry is basically to pimp my new icon that I made. I know it sucks, but I'm new!<br /><br />it's from the play tartuffe. The whole line is "cover that bosom girl, suchs sights as those can undermind the soul" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:23701 2004-05-04T03:25:29Z 2004-05-04T03:25:29Z Hockey Game Man, I am a nervous wreck watching the hockey game. Come one wings! They arent playing like they can! Come on boys! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:23333 2004-05-03T19:52:26Z 2004-05-03T19:52:26Z Aerosmith - Sweet Emotion well, this is kinda the test of the new layout. I'm not too sure if I like it or not. I am going to add some more pictures to it and try to make it less grainy.<br /><br />Please leave some comments on ways to improve and ideas for it! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:23269 2004-05-03T05:33:13Z 2004-05-03T05:33:13Z time for this layout to sail off the the grey havens... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:22644 2004-05-02T23:44:18Z 2004-05-02T23:44:18Z <font size="7" color="username">fading_evenstar</font><br /><br />man I was hoping for pink.... sigh urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:22527 2004-04-29T18:37:40Z 2004-04-29T18:37:40Z see letter "B" A - Age: 20<br />B - Band listening to right now: Ani Difranco<br />C - Career in future: musician<br />D - Dad's name: Lee and Brian(step)<br />E - Easiest person to talk to: Brenna<br />F - Favorite song at the moment: Status Quo - Picture of a Matchstick Man (thanks Andy!)<br />G - Grinagog (smiles a lot) or Grum (morose, surly)? Grinagog<br />H - How many major scars do you have? 3, one on my thigh from a glass, one on my knuckle from a brick wall, and one on my elbow from a bike accident<br />I - Instruments you play: oh geez... Clarinet(Bb, A, Eb), Trumpet, Drums, Sax, Flute, Piano, Organ, and Oboe. Can you tell I'm a music major<br />J - Jesus or Buddha? meh...<br />K - Kids: as long as they are someone elses<br />L - Longest time you've stayed awake: a day and a half almost<br />M - Marriage muthafucka! Do you speak it?!: hell no!<br />N - Number of siblings: 4 half siblings, all younger<br />O - Oneiros (god of dreams) or Orpheus (god of angsty music): Orpheus<br />P - Phobias: heights, death, bad hair days<br />Q - Quote you like: "I'd rather be a musician than a rockstar"<br />R - Raison d'etre: sigh...<br />S - Song you last sang, whistled, hummed: I Believe In A Thing Called Love - the Darkness<br />T - Trucker or poet? poet I guess<br />U - Unusual trait: when I get a new box of clarinet reeds I always smash the first one against the wall.<br />V - Vaccilatory (indecisive) or decisive?: vaccilatory.... wait... yeah I guess... no... yeah...vaccilatory... I'm pretty sure<br />W - Which fictional character do you feel most like? at the moment, Eponine<br />X - Xenophobic (fear of strangers) or Xenophile (love of strangers): Xenophile<br />Y - Yakuza or Mafia?: Mafia<br />Z - Zodiac sign: Aquarius urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:22251 2004-04-29T03:44:29Z 2004-04-29T03:44:29Z 1. Go into your LJ archives.<br />2. Find your 23rd post (or closest to).<br />3. Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).<br />4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions.<br /><br /><i>HA! The boy is wearing converse!</i> February 13th, 2004 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:21705 2004-04-26T05:03:21Z 2004-04-26T05:03:21Z Wilde DVD Why is it that I can't have the one person I want more than anything?<br /><br />Why is it that I am not loved in return by someone who I love more than life itself? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:21241 2004-04-25T05:06:08Z 2004-04-25T05:06:08Z The Who - Happy Jack I've been a bad bad girl...<br />.<br />.<br />.<br />.<br />.<br />.<br />.<br />.<br />but it feels oh so good! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:20626 2004-04-22T18:47:58Z 2004-04-22T18:47:58Z today is national day of silence in support of gays and lesbians....<br /><br /><br />so shut yer trap! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:20317 2004-04-21T06:21:45Z 2004-04-21T06:21:45Z not like anyone will do this, but for lack of a real post....<br /><br />1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.<br />2. Am I lovable?<br />3. How long have you known me?<br />4. When and how did we first meet?<br />5. What was your first impression?<br />6. Do you still think that way about me now?<br />7. What do you think my weakness is?<br />8. Do you think I'll get married?<br />9. What makes me happy?<br />10. What makes me sad?<br />11. What reminds you of me?<br />12. If you could give me anything what would it be?<br />13. How well do you know me?<br />14. When's the last time you saw me?<br />15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?<br />16. Do you think I could kill someone?<br />17. Describe me in one word.<br />18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?<br />19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?<br />20. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:20162 2004-04-20T19:57:36Z 2004-04-20T20:18:25Z Iced Earth - The Ripper I got out of the shower this morning, looked into the mirror.<br /><br />Usually I avoid mirrors at all cost, but not today.<br /><br />I find my reflection more than unusual today. Something was different.<br /><br />My eyes<br /><br />They have something there that wasnt there before. They are beginning to tell their story. To tell my story.<br /><br />I pretend to be this strong person, I pretend to be this brick. My all that I hide in the shadows of my persons are being brought to light in my eyes.<br /><br />"The eye is always caught by light, but shadows have more to say"<br /><br />I saw the words of Andy in them, and saw that he was right...<br /><br />I try, but it's a role I suck at. <br /><br />I am not this strong tough ass, I am a woman, I have feelings, and in the end...<br /><br />I'm finally ok with that. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:19921 2004-04-20T04:12:15Z 2004-04-20T04:12:15Z 85.KY (kyles station) commercial on tv for erectile disfunction pill: If erection lasts longer than 4 hours seek medical attention immeadiatly<br /><br />Micalah: if erection lasts longer than 4 hours, seek the attention of a new g/f or b/f. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:19673 2004-04-19T19:01:48Z 2004-04-19T19:01:48Z Shameless - Ani Difranco this is my skeleton<br />this is the skin it's in<br />that is, according to light<br />and gravity<br />i'll take off my disguise<br />the mask you met me in<br />`cuz i got something<br />for you to see<br />just gimme your skeleton<br />give me the skin it's in<br />yeah baby, this is you<br />according to me<br />i never avert my eyes<br />i never compromise<br />so never mind<br />the poetry urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:19408 2004-04-18T03:06:27Z 2004-04-18T03:06:27Z my emo brings all the boys to the yard<br />damn right it's sadder than yours urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fading_evenstar:18486 2004-04-16T17:33:50Z 2004-04-16T17:33:50Z Phantom of the Opera - Point of No Return I saw Phantom of the Opera last night. <br /><br />The funny thing is that when I cry it is because of the music, not the story.<br /><br />Yeah it's a love story, but the music is so pverwhelming and powerful.<br /><br />In the beginning, the oventure, when they are raising the Chandelier... I ball like a baby. Music of the Night, I had my eyes closed through the whole song, just listening to the music. And Masquerade... oh man.... tissue please!<br /><br />The guy that played Phantom was amazing. And I am picky when it comes to playing the phantom. I like Michael Crawford or Colm Wilkinson. But man, this guy was good. I wanted to run up and give him the biggest hug and a teddy bear. And could he sing!<br /><br />Sigh...<br /><br />"It's over now the music of the night"